Oh my dear Books,
I am sorry.
I am sorry that for so long, I thought of you as shameful or bad.
I am sorry that I didn't see how much you benefited me in my day-to-day life.
I let messages of misogyny become so internalized that I failed to see the beautiful gifts you gave me.
At one point, someone asked me, "Don't you think those books are giving you unrealistic expectations?" That question has stuck with me because my expectations in my day-to-day life are different, but they have been shaped by what I've learned from you.
A grand gesture isn't something I want or need, but having someone explicitly state their love and intentions is. It's also not an unreasonable expectation.
My partner will not always be obsessed with me (which isn't something I actually want), but my partner can believe I am the most beautiful woman in the room and mean it.
Meet-cutes may not happen in dramatic or fanciful ways in real life, but there can be some excitement and wonder in every person I meet.
I've been able to explore sexuality in a safe space, learning what I do and don't like, and even being brave enough to express them to my partner.
Most importantly, you've brought me joy. You've given me a safe space, knowing a happily ever after will always be at the end.
My joy and comfort are valuable and shouldn't be something I discount or hide.
Thank you,
RR
P.S. - Can we get more dual perspective, duet, rom-com audiobooks, please? They're just my favorite.